I thought it might be easier to follow our story if I keep a brief timeline here about where we’ve been.
October 2010 – our wedding! Pure, amazing bliss.
November 2010 – we start trying to conceive. My best friend (BFF) had just gotten pregnant (at our wedding – ha!) and we had long talked about having a baby when they did. I wanted to start as soon as possible, because I knew it could take time (although I didn’t believe it would for us!). Oh, if I only knew…
December 13, 2010 – I thought I got my period December 4. I was CRUSHED because like I said, I didn’t fully believe it would take us any time to get pregnant. However, it had now been 9 days of bleeding, which was weird for me. I was at a CPR class with my BFF, and mentioned to her the WEIRD period I had been having. She asked if I had taken a pregnancy test to which I replied …uh… I have my period. Those two kind of don’t go together. Haha. She convinced me to anyways.
December 14, 2010 – The next morning and I did and you wouldn’t believe the shock I had when just a couple minutes after peeing on that stick, staring back at me in all caps black letters was the word: PREGNANT. I was ecstatic. The fact that I had been bleeding didn’t even really cross my mind as an issue. I was PREGNANT. However, that all changed in a couple days.
December 15, 2010 – the doctor got me in right away because I had been bleeding, but she said she didn’t think there was anything to be concerned about. Still ecstatic. Due August 7.
December 16, 2010 – I get a call from the nurse that would begin to rock my world. My levels were low. Really low. HCG 117, Progesterone 9. They would draw my levels tomorrow, Friday, to see if they were doubling. She would call me Monday.
December 20, 2010 – I get the call I never wanted to get and never want to get again. HCG 80. Miscarriage imminent.
December 2010 – I don’t know exactly when the miscarriage occured, I bled for a total of 7 weeks. My worst cramping and bleeding was December 24th. Christmas Eve. Scarred for life.
March 2011 – still in extreme emotional pain from the loss of our first baby, and now infertility, we needed a puppy. So we got T. He was an angel and exactly what I needed!
July 2011 – STILL in extreme emotional pain from our loss and an even longer bout with infertility – AND my due date coming up, I “needed” another puppy. This is when M joined us. He was not so much an angel, but still 4 pounds of fluffy love.
October 2011 – A gets a job offer halfway across the country. We decide this is probably the only time in life we’ll just pack up and go, so we do. 30 days later.
December 14, 2011 – I was sure I was not pregnant this month. I had taken a Na.tural Family Planning class, so kind of knew when I was fertile, and I was certain we hadn’t done anything to create a child during that special time. BUT – my period was due December 14, the same day I had gotten a positive pregnancy test last year. Wouldn’t that be cool. To come full circle now. But I waited. And she didn’t show.
December 16, 2011 – I decided to test. And wouldn’t you know: PREGNANT. I just knew this would stick. I just knew this was it – we had come full circle. I was due with another August baby – amazing. Went to the doctor (a new one in our new home halfway across the country), who told me their urine test was negative, but they would run a blood test anyways. I probably just had a faulty test. Um… whoa. That sucks.
December 19, 2011 – Wouldn’t you know the 16th was a Friday so I had to wait all weekend to hear anything. They finally called on Monday to apologize, because I was in fact pregnant. My HCG was 80 and progesterone 9.5. Started on progesterone suppositories and came back for another blood draw. HCG 190 – doubling! This was it. Scheduled for a dating ultrasound a couple days after Christmas.
December 24, 2011 – both sides of our family got together for Christmas, so we told them all then. Big, big, big mistake. I had no idea what was coming.
December 29, 2011 – first ultrasound – just a gestational sac measuring 4 weeks 3 days. Maybe my dates were off.
January 5, 2012 – second ultrasound – gestational and yolk sac measuring 5 weeks 6 days. It had grown more than a week, but still no heartbeat detected.
January 12, 2012 – third ultrasound – gestational and yolk sac measuring 5 weeks 6 days. No growth, no development. Miscarriage for sure. Absolutely crushed. D&C scheduled for Tuesday.
January 16, 2012 – I’m in pain. All of a sudden that becomes extreme pain. I call A at work, and he decides he wants to come home to bring me lunch. I told him not to, but will forever be grateful he did. I ended up in bed that day for about 6 hours screaming at the top of my lungs in extreme pain. I had never felt anything like it. Finally, at around 3:30pm (just after A had headed back to pick up his stuff at work), our baby passed naturally. And I felt an immediate sense of relief. It was over. Cancel D&C.
February 2012 – “D&C follow up” turned miscarriage follow up. My OB basically hands me a paper with a list of RE’s in the area and says there’s nothing more she can do for me. Thanks.
April 2012 – first consultation with RE. Diagnosed with PCOS. Put on a daily regimen of baby aspirin, dexamethasone, and metformin. I felt extremely hopeful – there was “no reason” this wouldn’t work. Ha. I’ll eat my words/thoughts in a couple months.
May 2012 – first clomid cycle. 2 follicles measuring 15mm each on day 12. HCG trigger on day 15. 9dpo progesterone 30.4. BFN.
June 2012 – clomid round 2. 1 HUGE follicle measuring 37mm on day 13. HCG trigger day 13. 7dpo progesterone 93.8. BFN.
July 2012 – one last clomid cycle. 3 follicles 15, 25, and 27mm on day 13. HCG trigger day 13. 6dpo progesterone 53.7. B…F…N.
August 2012 – No RE appointment until September, so this cycle is natural. Ovulation on day 19-20ish.
September 6, 2012 – Pregnant! Here we go again…